Welcome back from our August vacation! This is easing back into our weekly habit of fasting and praying for 1) marriages for those who desire them, 2) men to lead relationally and otherwise, and 3) women to see where we need to change and be willing to do so. If you have Labor Day picnic plans, celebrate with everyone and join us next week.
I know I agreed to write the post for this week, but I admit to not being in a great place. I’ve been thinking about the need for me to see where I need to change and be willing to do so. And I’ve been learning repeatedly that I often don’t want to see those places or want to change! My heart is deceptive and I weave my own plans for my life, unconsciously or not, because I think I know better than His good and gracious ways.
Of course it never works out, and I then find myself feeling far from my heavenly Father’s voice and eyes and presence. I have not made listening to Him a priority but suddenly see again how much I need Him and His forgiveness. I recognize again that my central need is not a date for Friday night, or surviving this busy season at work, or losing ten pounds before my cousin’s wedding. My central need is to be transformed by the truth of the gospel.
As we start another season of walking this fastpray blog path, it is clear that this journey is not centrally about singleness or the (as-of-yet) unmet desire for marriages and families. This area of unmet desire is simply the stage on which our heart’s true desires are played out, and our heart reality is often selfish, angry, proud, resentful, lustful, controlling and unforgiving (to name a few!). For me, seeing more of my sinful heart pushes me back to the One who came to seek and save the lost (Luke 19:10).
But turning to Him also shows me that He is the faithful One who sees everything, loves unconditionally, forgives graciously, redeems my life, paid the final price for my sin, hears my prayers, knows my heart, designed me for a purpose, has good plans for me, and will make all things right on the last day. He is worthy of our trust – regardless of circumstances. I look forward to Him working in our hearts this fall and beyond. In the words of I Thess 5:24 puts it: He who calls you is faithful; he will surely do it.
By His Grace,